Current weight: 267.1 lbs,
Total weight loss: 38.7 lbs.
This morning I weighed 267.1 pounds – my lowest weight since starting this process! (Woohoo!)
I have continued to follow a ketogenic diet as much as possible – over the last few weeks this has been about 85% of the time. 10% of the time I end up having more carbohydrates — more like 100 or 120 grams a day (as opposed to less than 50 on the ketogenic days). During these days I’ll eat more things like starchy vegetables, yogurt, sushi, more dark chocolate, berries, etc. Things that I would consider healthy with some nutritional value.
But then there is that last 5% of the time.
These days: the 5% of the time.
Unfortunately on these days, this 5% of the time, my old habits and addictions seem to return. Or maybe they are always there, lurking under the surface. Waiting for that exact right moment to emerge. To take control.
Similar to my binges of the past, on these days I somehow get it in my head that I want to eat something, or a lot of somethings, or anything I want. And then I do.
Burgers, and pizza and ice cream, oh my!
These are the days that I seem to lose control. These are the days that got me here in the first place. Days that have contributed to wild swings in my weight — up to 320, down to 198, up to 328. My own personal roller coaster. I hate roller coasters.
And to be honest — I’m still not entirely sure what to do with them. These days.
How to handle them. These days.
While my weight loss continues, it has definitely slowed. And I think it is because of these days. These are the few days that set me back.
Even though I still have weight to lose, maybe my metabolism is so deranged from a lifetime of unhealthy eating that my body just can’t handle these days? Or maybe I eat far more calories than I realize on these days? Or maybe these days are just slowly increasing?
Maybe that’s how these days work. They slowly — imperceptibly, insidiously — start to creep up. One day at a time.
Until eventually these days become most days. The few becomes the many.
So even though I have lost almost 40 pounds (6o from my highest weight!) and more importantly am healthier and more fit, I still have to worry about these days. And figure out how to keep these days from taking over. Or even better — eliminate these days forever.
Yep. These are the days.
Current weight: 267.1 lbs,
Total weight loss: 38.7 lbs.
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