Current weight: 283.4 lbs,
Total weight loss: 22.4 lbs.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and holiday weekend! There is so much to be grateful for. Although the last few days didn’t go completely as planned, I have tried to view them in a spirit of gratitude.
Thanksgiving Update
Thanksgiving was wonderful. A happy celebration with lots of family and beautiful weather here in the northeast.
My cheat meal plan went well, and I was able to enjoy some of the delicious Thanksgiving foods (minus dessert as planned). In fact, I was surprised that I got full so quickly. It must be because of how my eating habits have changed.
The following morning my weight was up 2.6 pounds to 279.8. This may seem like a lot. However given the increased carb and salt load I had and the fact that I ate pretty late, I was ok with this number. It could have been much higher and was probably mainly fluids.
So as I was saying, Thanksgiving went well.
But….(why is there always a but??)
That all changed Friday morning.
Thanksgiving night, I went to bed tired, full and a little bloated. I was looking forward to getting back to my normal friday fasting routine the next day. Even though full-day fasting can be tough, I have come to appreciate how I feel after the fast. My body feels rested and cleansed. And the first meal I have afterwards always seems so delicious and nourishing. I have a renewed appreciation for food and how lucky I am to have such easy access to it. During a fast, I become acutely aware of how many people around the world suffer with no access to food; how many fast not by choice but by circumstance.
The Friday after Thanksgiving, I woke up craving food. The types of food that I have craved my whole life and that can cause me to binge eat and have made me question if I was a food addict.
Long story short – I went completely off program and ate a lot of junk all day Friday and didn’t keep track of any of it. And in typical fashion, I ended the day feeling discouraged and angry with myself.
A Spirit of Gratitude
Yesterday morning, I didn’t even bother weighing myself. I didn’t want the scale to discourage me and give me more reason to have another day completely off program. Fortunately, I was able to get back on track yesterday and even made it to the gym where I did 30 minutes on the treadmill.
This morning, my weight was 283.4. (Ugh.)
But I felt good today and was happy to recommit again to my wellness endeavor and not lose hope.
I also decided to embrace a spirit of gratitude.
So, Rather Than Be…
- Disappointed with myself for Friday, I am grateful that it was only one day off program. In the past, that one day usually turned into days, weeks, months.
- Discouraged by my overall weight situation, I am grateful for generally good health despite my weight. Health that continues to improve each day.
- Disheartened with the small failures I have along the way, I am grateful that I am learning how to accept and learn from them. And use them as growing opportunities.
- Disparaging of myself, I am grateful for the person I am. A person with many flaws, but one who is kind and caring. And one who has freedom, basic life necessities, a good job, and wonderful family and friends.
- Dispirited by my seemingly slow progress, I am grateful for the 45 pounds that I have lost since my highest weight of 328 pounds. And grateful that I remain committed to and hopeful about my health.
Day #83:
Current weight: 283.4 lbs
Total weight loss: 22.4 lbs
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