Current weight: 277 lbs,
Total weight loss: 28.8 lbs.
I have mentioned before that I don’t have a final weight loss goal in mind. What I do know, however, is that I want to be healthy and fit. I’m not sure what number on the scale that translates to, but it’s definitely lower than what I am currently.
But – I do have a list of Ultimate Goals. These aren’t necessarily related to the scale, but rather to being healthier and fitter.
Crossing My Legs
This will probably sound strange to most people, but being able to comfortably cross my legs was one of my ultimate goals. I know it’s a trivial thing, but when you’re significantly overweight, this small act becomes hard, if not impossible, to do.
For the last several years, I haven’t been able to cross my legs. When I would try, the closest I’d get was the half-cross: resting the outside of my outer lower leg over my knee. I’m sure I looked as awkward as I felt.
Because of this, I would usually have to cross my legs at the ankle or just not cross them at all, which is what I usually ended up doing. Although this wasn’t something I’d actively think about, occasionally I would feel uncomfortable and awkward enough to consider it. To consider the fact that I used to be able to do this without a problem, but had now gotten large enough that it wasn’t possible.
This simple, elegant, normal act taken for granted by so many people was out of my reach.
Non-Scale Victory
Well…it’s no longer out of my reach!!
A few days ago, I realized that I was sitting with my legs crossed comfortably. In fact, I had been able to do so for at least a week. I don’t know when it started – it just snuck up on me unexpectedly.
It happened one day soon after I sunk into the living room couch. Preoccupied by my phone, I leaned back to start reading and crossed my legs.
Halfway into an email, I stopped and looked down, and it occurred to me that my legs were crossed. And not only that, I was quite comfortable. For a moment, I sat staring at my legs.
Wait … what?! When did I start doing this??
I confirmed: right over left, and then left over right, and back to right over left. Yep. I could do it. Both sides. Nothing stopping me.
As it unfolded, I recognized the absurdness of the entire situation. That this small, insignificant gesture would ever be something to think about, much less concern myself with. (And certainly not to admit or write about!)
But like with other mundane elements of everyday life, I craved its normalcy.
And though it may be absurd, or even silly, I still rejoiced in this novel ability. Not because it was extraordinary or noteworthy, but simply because it was normal.
And for me, this was definitely another exciting Non-Scale Victory!! (My list is growing…hooray!)
Day #76:
Current weight: 277 lbs
Total weight loss: 28.8 lbs
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